First day that I stayed at home for the whole day after holiday started. Slept too much, so I'm having sleepless night right now.

Too many things happen since the last time I blog. Within this 3 months, I grown up, changed and realized so much that I never thought that these will happen to me. I really love my life now, hope everything remain the same as long as possible. I hope that my stupid brain and mouth won't spoil anything.

W:
It hasn't been long since I first met you, but you change me so much.You bring me happiness that I thought I could no longer deserve in my whole life. You help me up during the worst part of my life. I don't know how long we will be like this, I hope forever.

Forever, the word that brought me happiness but also burn me in hell. I only have myself to blame in believing this word, believing in fairy tales. That word really burn me up quite a bit. I gave up so much to uphold such believe, yes I'm stupid. I don't want to be stupid anymore, I want to live my own life. That hurts you a lot, I know. Maybe you are right, those three words should not come out from my mouth if I can't prove it. I have nothing to show you. Nothing.

I have absolute no idea of what I should do. I just hope whatever happening now can last a little longer. Just a little, not asking for forever.

J:
You taught me a lot too. Bombarded me with all the wrong things that I have been doing, and you have been tolerating. Thanks, I have been living in my own world for too long, living in the world that fairy tales and love stories do exist. I'm so awake now. No human, including you can give me that kind of promises. I learned it the hard way. In just a blink of eyes, we are strangers. I tried my best and I don't regret. Without your absent I don't know that I actually could live how I live now. I once thought that I can't live without you. I still miss the past, if anyone ever give me one more chance, I would like to take that route again but I would also choose to stop at where we are now. All the best